I’m declaring bankruptcy.
No, we haven’t gotten to that point financially—not yet. But in terms of my online identity.
Primarily, this is in the form of email bankruptcy– I just either archived or deleted over two thousand emails in my inbox. I am now at Inbox: 2.
And beyond that, I’m declaring bankruptcy for myself when it comes to this blog. No, that doesn’t mean I’m quitting it, it means that I forgive myself the “debt” of the dozens of half-written blog posts that I have accumulated over the past several months.
Enough with the guilt.
Enough with the paralysis.
I’m moving on. Moving forward. Renewing my commitment to this project.
Test Subject V is doing great. Recently, over less than two weeks, she suddenly learned a military crawl, a regular crawl, discovered she could pull herself up to a standing position, began cruising, and learned to pull herself into a sitting position from lying on her belly.
And I am completely fucking exhausted.
Buckle up, readers. I’m back, and the ride is even bumpier. Higher highs and lower lows and the shocks gave out a couple months ago.
2 replies on “Bankruptcy”
V getting so mobile is, I’m sure, a definite contributing factor to the tiredness. You earned that exhaustion! (You also deserve your own forgiveness. I struggle with that in parenting, too!)
Parenting guilt is the hardest part of parenting to be ignored by most books on child-rearing.